Why Am I Doing This?

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I’m not going to lie, I’m only doing this to impress myself.
I once foolishly believed that in order for me to be satisfied with my writing, I needed attention. I needed to win contests, get good grades on essays, write a book. I was a hubris asshole who didn’t stand a chance at succeeding in this world. And by success, I don’t mean achievements, I mean a kind of self worth that can only be seen through my own eyes. It’s easy to impress others, near impossible to impress one’s self.

I guess this is a way for me to reach a certain level of pride that is euphoric and humble at the same time. When I look at my blog, I am proud. It certainly is not the best blog out there, but there is no way anyone can be “the best.” I will never try to be “the best” again. Striving for that goal won’t ever lead to a finish line, but rather a cliff where you will mindlessly fall off the edge with every other person who chases something that cannot exist, even in his/her mind. Yes, you will run together like a heard of confused buffalo being chased by a noble hunter.

If I do fall off a cliff, it will certainly be by my own choosing. Not because I am caught up in some metaphorical race.

“The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. If you can change the way people think. The way they see themselves. The way they see the world. You can change the way people live their lives. That’s the only lasting thing you can create.”

— Chuck Palahniuk

The quote essentially lines out the purpose behind this blog. Just as Chuck Palahniuk found a way to inspire and entertain a lot of people, I hope to inspire at least one person on this planet. In the process, I’m sure I will entertain myself and tell you about it so you can have second hand entertainment. Wish me luck on my quest.

Side Note: Please don’t confuse my sarcasm as arrogance. I do not think I am better than anyone else. I merely use certain…techniques to express flaws that I hope to shed light on.

24 thoughts on “Why Am I Doing This?

  1. good luck on your quest! You’re inspiring to me, as I’m not a writer (evident from my blog!) But I’m trying to learn how to communicate better through stories with iteration! Thanks for stopping by :)= J

    • Thank you very much for your kind words. The whole reason I made a blog was to connect with people. You writing will continue to get better the more you do it. I will keep up to date on your posts and check up on your progress :P

  2. yes; well i can’t agree moptre sometimes, the reason why i liked this page s i love someone that well, puts on many different faces? and well now i really don’t even know who she is anymore cuz she has twisted all my truth roundy round fer fun i guess, is kinna heartbreaking , so yep i can relate to this bloga lot! i can,……….so jest suffer fromme-itis too much and think they know more than the rest of the werld…Thanks again an namaste’ 2 u frum Q

  3. Hiya!
    Couldn’t have said it better myself, Always tried to write something on this topic but to no avail, you literally just said what going on upstairs..
    I guess its easier to impress others, cause in a sense if they like it, its gives a sense of accomplishment, well that’s how I see it anyways
    I applied for a poetry slam competition and they got back to me a couple of days ago with a NO! That was a big blow in the face, if i must say, cause that was the first time I felt proud of my writing and was going to say my peace to the world, but guess not now!

    Okay now I’m rambling on, all in all
    Great Post :)

    • thanks for your support! the coolest thing about having a blog is the love and support you get from other writers. I like blogging because it’s more than just an electronic diary, it’s a way to say what’s on your mind and have people (like you) come along and say, “Hey! I’m in the same boat!” thanks again for your support.

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