I’m not going to lie, I’m only doing this to impress myself.
I once foolishly believed that in order for me to be satisfied with my writing, I needed attention. I needed to win contests, get good grades on essays, write a book. I was a hubris asshole who didn’t stand a chance at succeeding in this world. And by success, I don’t mean achievements, I mean a kind of self worth that can only be seen through my own eyes. It’s easy to impress others, near impossible to impress one’s self.
I guess this is a way for me to reach a certain level of pride that is euphoric and humble at the same time. When I look at my blog, I am proud. It certainly is not the best blog out there, but there is no way anyone can be “the best.” I will never try to be “the best” again. Striving for that goal won’t ever lead to a finish line, but rather a cliff where you will mindlessly fall off the edge with every other person who chases something that cannot exist, even in his/her mind. Yes, you will run together like a heard of confused buffalo being chased by a noble hunter.
If I do fall off a cliff, it will certainly be by my own choosing. Not because I am caught up in some metaphorical race.
“The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. If you can change the way people think. The way they see themselves. The way they see the world. You can change the way people live their lives. That’s the only lasting thing you can create.”
— Chuck Palahniuk
The quote essentially lines out the purpose behind this blog. Just as Chuck Palahniuk found a way to inspire and entertain a lot of people, I hope to inspire at least one person on this planet. In the process, I’m sure I will entertain myself and tell you about it so you can have second hand entertainment. Wish me luck on my quest.
Side Note: Please don’t confuse my sarcasm as arrogance. I do not think I am better than anyone else. I merely use certain…techniques to express flaws that I hope to shed light on.